Autor skladby, textu a videa: Jakub Neuman

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Gazing onto empty screen
I feel nothing, I can’t feel anything
Breeze whispered ‘hush!’ and I’m stoned again
I am running but don’t know where

Growing discomfort in my head
Painting black around my bed
Surrounded by shadow of mine
It follows me, it reads my mind

Morning coffee, cigarette
Humor fading from my head
Waking up to fall asleep
Everyday this same routine

Looking at all pills I take
Drifting into state of absence
Leading myself towards the edge
Then falling down deep into nowhere

I’m chasing ghosts than being chased by them
Crying over photographs from moments that will never come back
Psychologist told me that he feels so sorry for my pain
But is it any helpful when you want to kill yourself?

They are saying that this is just a phase
But they don’t know that in the context with my life
the phase were those times with her, together holding our hands
Now I’m where I was before those two wonderful years
Sitting alone in the corner, holding knife in my hand
But now it is different, because now I lost everything I loved

Everything I loved

Everything I loved

So will it ever end?
Or will I be forever fucked up in head?
So will it ever end?
Or will I be forever fucked up in my head?

And here I am, again running from my feelings
From other’s cold judging looks
I am hyperventilating

My heart’s about to stop or to shoot out from my chest?
I can’t see another way out than to take another pill

I wish that one day there will be sun up on the sky
And I won’t be feared to go out and see it for myself
With smile on my face
With life in the eyes
With strenght to live
And will to love

Gazing onto my empty face in a mirror

Gazing onto my empty face in a mirror

Crying over my empty face in a mirror

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