This is me opening up about a confusing near death experience I had and recognizing that there are a lot of things about my past that I just don't understand and why I am trying to be as open and honest as I can while acknowledging that I myself have been experiencing all sorts of triggering and traumatic events. At this point I am focusing on grounding myself and coming to terms with the fact I may never know the true answers while simultaneously trying to understand. This utilizes something I learned at the hospital called dialectic behavioral therapy about acknowledging two seemingly opposing simultaneous truths which is the psychological medicine to cognitive dissonance and connecting it to my experiences with seeking truth and oneness
