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Chapters:
00:00:00 - Introduction to Amoda Maa Jeevan
00:04:53 - Childhood Dreams and Academic Struggles
00:07:37 - The Loss and Opening of Self
00:11:47 - Surrendering to Life and Opening to Love
00:16:09 - A Dark Night of the Soul
00:20:10 - Embracing the Darkness and Gratitude
00:25:17 - The Birth of the Christ Consciousness
00:28:30 - The Essence of the Experience
00:32:08 - Finding My Path
00:35:22 - Awakening and Enlightenment
00:39:13 - The Capacity to Accept and the Misunderstanding
00:43:13 - The Potential of Suffering as a Doorway
00:46:45 - Awakening to the Divine Co-Creative Force
00:49:33 - Embracing the Dark and Painful Parts Within Ourselves
00:53:01 - The Cycle of Abuse and Re-Triggering
00:56:35 - Accepting and Processing Harmful Situations
00:59:54 - Investigating Vulnerability and Fear
01:03:43 - Facing the Abyss: The Power of Present Awareness
01:07:20 - The Importance of Reminding and Supporting Each Other
01:10:28 - The Paradox of Meditation Practice
01:13:40 - Authenticity and Continuous Unfoldment
01:17:09 - The Concept of God and Awakeness
01:20:01 - The Profound Intelligence in Creation
01:23:54 - Seeing the God in Everything
01:27:20 - The Evolution of Awakening and Embodiment of Enlightenment
01:30:14 - The Contradiction of "Nothing New Under the Sun" and "Only a New Seed can Yield a New Crop"
01:33:28 - Embracing the Body and the World
01:36:26 - The Teachings of the Heavenly Father and Earthly Mother
01:39:40 - The Paradox of Optimism
01:43:20 - The Transition and Contribution of Spiritual Teachers
01:46:06 - Links and Contact Info
Amoda's spiritual journey has involved a phoenix-like transformation out of the darkness of personal suffering. Born into challenging circumstances, she was classified as clinically depressed for a number of years. In spite of this, she studied intensely for a Doctorate in Psychology, but a profound unity-consciousness experience in 1989 devastated her personal and academic life and set her on the path of self-inquiry. Penniless and homeless, without the usual attachments and identifications of modern-day life, she became a "nobody". Fueled by her own unexpected mystical and visionary experiences, the next few years were spent on a deep inner exploration which included meditation, primal therapy, rebirthing, metaphysics, psychedelics, and many other psycho-spiritual methods.
Her search for happiness eventually led her to India and to the ashram of the revolutionary mystic, Osho. Although Osho had already left his body, she recognized him as her spiritual master and she opened to the unconditional love in his invisible presence. Seeing through the identification with form, she then turned her attention towards surrender to the totality of existence; life itself became the guru. On her return to the UK, Amoda developed her own unique method of transformation using movement, meditation and breath, but despite her external success, she was still searching for happiness and love and in 2002 she experienced an extended period of "existential abandonment". This was a deeply internal experience that took her to the core wound of separation or "dark night of the soul". When her desire for truth finally became greater than her desire for relationship, love, happiness or even enlightenment, a "psychological death" happened and in the midst of this she received a mystical vision. This vision radically changed her life and gave her the keys to the transformation of her own personal suffering as well as the keys to the transformation of humanity's suffering.
Shortly after this experience, Amoda let go of the transformational teaching she had developed and she entered a period of not-knowing. Whilst she continued to be touched by the fragrance of spiritual masters, in particular Ramana Maharshi, it is through the contemplation and application of the spiritual lessons received in the vision that an awakened presence became embodied as a living reality. Since then, all seeking stopped, all methods dropped, and there is a gentle coming home to rest more deeply in non-dual awareness amidst the mystery of ordinary life.
Books:
How to Find God in Everything: An Invitation to Awaken to Your True Nature and Transform Your World
Change Your Life, Change Your World: Ten Spiritual Lessons for a New Way of Being and Living
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Interview recorded 3/23/2013
