This video has been sitting on my phone’s camera roll for weeks now. May is Mental Health Awareness month, and as an advocate for ending the stigmas associated with mental health issues, I decided to be vulnerable and tell you the truth about my life on the road.

However, whenever I thought about uploading it, I’d back out due to fear or shame. This video has none of the positivity and possibility that you associate me with.

In fact, it’s the complete opposite.

It tells you that I’m not okay. I’m not as happy as I used to be and that I long to get my old life back.

It tells you that life on the road isn’t as picture perfect as it seems. Being a vagabond isn’t some kind of Hollywood movie or Instagram reel. It’s loneliness, isolation, the fleeting idea of permanence.

It tells you how difficult it is to tell stories online. With so many storytellers and with such a small voice, it’s so hard to stand out and succeed.

It tells you that sometimes, I question what I fight for. I question my place on the road and my place in the lives of people. I question what I can do and if this adventure even matters.

This is the reality about my life on the road. These are my feelings: raw and unapologetic.

This the truth about my travels.

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