justin pov.
i left for tour, why did we have to confess our love for each other the fucking night before i left? i didnt know if we were together or not. i started missing him, and everyone could tell there was something wrong, but i just told them it was nerves, or i was home sick, or it was nothing. truth is i missed him. we kept in touch by phone and ichat but noone ever mentioned that night, it was like it never happend.i wanted him to mention it first, but he never did.maybe because we've been apart for so longhe just doesnt feel the same way. one day i finally texted him asking what was going on between us.
~the conversation~
justin: ryan i think we need to talk about that night.
ryan: what night?
justin: the night we kissed. i thought we had something.
ryan: we do, i was waiting for you to say something first.]
justin: i was waiting for you.
ryan:..oh.
justin: yeah..do you still feel the same way?
ryan:i do.... i started talking to sara agian.
sara...fucking sara bayleat. i hated her with a passion..she got ryan and now shes going to get him back. ryan broke things off on valentines day, that was the best day ever. me and her started talking..i think she wanted me. she was a 18 year old girl and i was only 15. we were on i chat one night when i had scotty over, she was drunk so scotty asked her to flash us. we didnt think she would do it... but she did. scotty took a screen cap and sent it to ryan to show him how much of a whore she was. but now hes talking to her agian. how stupid can he fucking be?
justin: oh...really?
ryan: yeah shes coming up to hang out.
i felt like my heart had been ripped out of my chest, stomped on then but back in. i dont know how i would handle it if they started dating. id have to move n and forget i had feelings for him.
justin: oh..nice. have fun ry. i got to go, ill text you later.
ryan: ight jay, bye.
justin: bye......i love you.
ryan: i love you too jay.
did he? did he really love me?
i checked saras twitter that night, it said going to canada to see the boy :D. i literaly want to punch a fucking wall. and to make things better i had a concert, i had to go on stage and do what i do best, i went out there and sang my ass off for my fans because they are the people who really matter most now.
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i get a ton of veiws but no comments O.o, gunna post all the chapters i have then if i get comments and veiws ill post more.
